I found out today that a woman I work with died on Thursday night. She was alone in her yard, no one at all knew until Friday. J痴 desk was six feet from mine. J was a very gentle, very kind woman. She shared my frugal interests: her Christmas present to me was an empty square tissue box, which she knows I use to put TP in, modified for me. She had lifted the flaps and put Velcro there, so I had an easily reusable tissue holder. It was a funny, sweet, humorous, unique, and very thoughtful gift; all attributes that she herself had.
I知 just in a funky, mad headspace. Mad that she died. Mad that she died out in her yard, and was there all night-worried that she may have been cold, or scared, or lonely as she died. Worried about her partner. Mad at how young she was-somewhere in the early fifties. Mad that I came in today and her space was cleared out; I was out of town and felt among the last to know.
I致e had a lot of death in my life, but most of it was from folks dying of illness. As sad as watching someone die is, at least I always got to say goodbye. I知 mad I couldn稚 say goodbye. I値l really miss her.
After being a snappy, cranky, touchy fiend tonight, I値l crawl in bed, hunker down, and face an altered world tomorrow. I値l remind myself, again, to be grateful, to tell those I care about that I知 fond of them, to make sure I do my best to live fully. I値l do these things so that if I am unlucky enough to die so young, that I値l have a lot of warm memories and loved ones to mourn me, not just a healthy bank account and a tidy house.
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BW
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Take care & enjoy the positive memories of your friend.
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All of us are working very hard at planning for tomorrow, but i also feel we must live for today.
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"I値l remind myself, again, to be grateful, to tell those I care about that I知 fond of them, to make sure I do my best to live fully. I値l do these things so that if I am unlucky enough to die so young, that I値l have a lot of warm memories and loved ones to mourn me, not just a healthy bank account and a tidy house."
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